Spamano MPREG: La Vida Lovi 20

Lovino thought waiting would be easy but just knowing Antonio was so keen to fix their relationship made him even more willing to get back together. As the weeks went by waiting for the Spaniard to knock on his door with good news, Lovino had to practice a fair bit of self-restraint. Antonio often called just to talk but Lovino felt he could only hang up on him or else he feared asking him over or getting invited to Francis'. It was so hard because he felt so lonely in his big house with no one but Roma to be his companion. She was often a crappy companion too because she'd dig her claws into his knees if she laid on his lap and always liked to scratched the furniture. He thought of training her to be outdoor but he didn't trust the city streets and didn't want to be even more alone. Declawing was an option but scratching seemed to be her favourite pastime and he didn't want her to be just as miserable as himself.
Lovino thought waiting would be easy but Antonio thought the same about finding a job.
"Why is every entry level job for the summer?!" Antonio asked as he was surfing the Internet in the kitchen. "It's February!"
Francis sighed as he was making himself a coffee. "Summer time jobs are always posted way ahead of time so that they have time to interview, organise, and train. What are the jobs? Camp counsellors and what not?"
"Sí! And Wonderland jobs and things!"
"Oh, that would be fun. You could work there. Or the CNE." The Frenchman sat down in front of him and stirred in his sugar. "Although, those are really student jobs..."
"Exactly. How am I supposed to compete with bright eyed poor young students?"
Francis raised an eyebrow and pointed his spoon at Antonio. "Has it occurred to you that you could go back to school?"
Antonio huffed. "For what?"
"Well..." Francis pulled over the laptop and looked at some of the job listings, also closing a Candy Crush window. "Ah. This camp is looking for a head cook. You're good at cooking. You could get cooking training."
"That would take longer than a few months. And if I don't get a job now, Lovino won't date me!"
"I'm sure he could make an exception if he knows you're in school."
"No! He wants me to get a job now!" He sighed. "I'm never going to get him back, am I?"
"Of course you are. Lovino wants to be with you." Francis patted his hand. "He just wants to see you succeed. Don't you want to succeed?"
"Of course I do but it's so hard."
"Oh boo hoo." Gilbert had just woken up and was coming into the kitchen for some coffee. "Life's hard, Toni. Get used to it."
Antonio slumped against the table. "I know..."
Francis narrowed his eyes. "Gilbert, you're not helping."
"Oh, I'm sorry your life is perfect, Dr. Bonnefoy, and that gives you the right to tell everyone else how to run their's."
"Gilbert, I went through several years of medical school to get to where I am!"
"You wouldn't have been able to pay for it if your parents hadn't croaked before they could change their will! And you even fucked a teacher for grades!"
"It wasn't for grades! Dr. Arlington was a very nice woman!" Francis fumed. "And what makes you think my life is perfect? At least you two know love! I haven't known love in over twenty years."
"I repeat, boo hoo. Maybe if you didn't fuck the entire hospital faculty, you'd have my pity!" Gilbert pointed to Francis. "You'll never find love because you're a whore." He pointed to Antonio. "You'll never find love because you'd be a hobo without Francis and I..." He put a hand to his chest. "I will never find love because I'm a piece of shit!"
He then grabbed a beer from the fridge and went to his room. The other two watched him go and then Antonio looked to Francis.
"Sounds like Feliks broke up with him," the Spaniard said.
Francis rubbed his forehead. "Why are we so hopeless, anyway?"
"Well, I'd rather have money and no love than nothing at all..."
Francis rolled his eyes. "Yeah, well... Then get a job." He took his coffee and went to sit down in the living room.
Antonio watched him go then pulled Candy Crush back up and continued his 'job hunt'.

In March, Marina turned two. She was now a walking talking little ball of energy that couldn't be more curious and reckless. Ludwig and Feliciano needed all the help they could get and Lovino was often glad to be there. In May and June, Feliciano was at his busiest grading summative art projects from his students while Ludwig was working late hours at his automotive repair job and neither really had the time to keep up with Marina's needs. Lovino often took her out for a while on really tiring days and his brother really appreciated it. He took her to the aquarium a few times which was somewhat expensive but she seemed to really like it and he did find it rather calming to watch the fish, sharks and other marine life go about their simple lives. There were a lot of other kids Marina's age there too so she made a few friends and if they were local, Lovino got their parents' information to bring back to his brother.
Often enough though, Lovino was pretty busy too so he'd just take her to his place and try to get her to bed early enough that he could get work done while she was asleep. Unfortunately some nights, while she slept quietly, he couldn't think of much more than what it'd would've been like if her cousin was around now. He or she would've been born in March too and would now be one year old. Marina would've probably been like a big sister and she'd play with them and try to teach them words even if she didn't have the most extensive vocabulary. The house would be very lively because Feliciano would always have her over for play dates and Antonio would be there laughing and playing with them too, doing finger painting or playing his guitar for them. And Lovino would be tired and messy and the happiest he'd ever been in his whole life.
On these days, with these thoughts running through his head, Lovino could do nothing but hold his tears and watch Marina sleep, knowing the past could never change.